I was labelled by my MIL as the rubber band type, according to her, I would be thin and then gain weight. It was a cycle. But I didn't mind the cycle. It was more, the other people minded the cycle. I think it was only in 2003 that I realized that eating was super enjoyable! Hahaha.. Two years after, I documented food trips on my blog - this, this blog was born!
Through the years, I was thin-fat-thin-fat - it was really a cycle, but during that time - when I felt that I gained weight, I would be able to diet and exercise and lose the weight. I then found Bikram Yoga which I really loved. I got married and after a year or so - I got pregnant. I gained SO much weight while I was pregnant with Kailee - and after, I had a hard time losing the weight because I was breastfeeding. When I didn't eat - I wouldn't produce so much milk - thus I ate. Before I knew it, I got pregnant again, with Connor - but at that time - I controlled what I ate - I gained 25lbs. That was on top of the weight I gained while I was pregnant with Kailee. I lost the 'added' pregnancy weight but all the excess weight I gained when I had Kailee - is still very present up to now. I honestly don't mind that people tell me I'm fat simply because it is true! I don't deny the fact that its - honest to goodness TRUE! But you see, I don't ming being big. I think the only issue I have is that - I don't have any more clothes! I belong to the group that is too big for pre-pregnancy wear and too small for maternity wear. I am in LIMBO - hahaha! But seriously, I am happy with how I am. I wish that I can be thinner - but come on! I knew that if I didn't get my ass on the treadmill - nothing will happen.
One of the reasons that I never had the chance to diet or exercise was because I am still pumping breastmilk for Connor. I'm sure there will be a lot of people who would say I am just making up excuses, but I don't care. Each body is different and my body - I know it better than anyone. I need to eat, to be able to produce milk. And so I have been delaying the diet. I'm sure for others, breastfeeding helped them lose weight - I think its the pregnancy weight that they lost. But as I said - each body is different. I envy those who lost weight with breastfeeding - as with me, sorry - I belong to the margin of error that didn't lose weight.
Yesterday - my Panget and I had our bloodworks done. I honestly hated it because I am super scared of needles. I'm sure I'll get hirits that I already gave birth and all, that I should be able to handle the small needle prick. I still can't. I was heavily sedated when I gave birth via CS and I took so many pain killers - so it made childbirth a breeze! So, yesterday afternoon - we got the results. And my results were surprisingly
The results that I got, didn't surprise me at all, I expected it since I wasn't very particular with my diet. I knew I had an issue with Uric Acid - I've had it for the past 10 years, but it was always on the border, it was never over the border. As for my Triglycerides - it has been high since I got pregnant, my OB said it was okay. My cholesterol - well, they've always been within range and never over the limit. As for the Fasting Blood Glucose - this was the first time ever. Am I considered a diabetic?
Seeing these results well - they made me realize that I NEED to change my diet, exercise and lose weight. I don't think I have a choice. It's my health that is on the line now. And I am the only one to blame for this. Maybe it's the age, but I admit - I don't watch what I eat. I guess, I was oblivious to the fact that I SHOULD take care of my health. I was over confident and this is the result.
I remember hearing on the radio that one should exercise at least 14 minutes a day. I will do better, I will start walking on the treadmill for 30 minutes and then slowly make it longer. I will also try to watch what I eat.
Please wish me luck on this journey of mine. I would appreciate any suggestions and help to make this journey more pleasing. I know I can do it - I know I have the discipline to watch what I eat - but the exercise - gosh, I HATE the sweaty feeling (thus, I always have a fan in my bag) I don't like to move around and about! Hahaha... So this is really going to be a tough journey. Please pray for me and wish me luck!
Would anyone be able to help me out on what food I should avoid or eat more of? I would appreciate them very much!! Thanks in advance!! :)
I hope that on my next blood test, everything will be in the normal range.
Health is finally catching up on me!!