Goodbye my Jacob, thank you for the love!

(I wish I can make this image bigger, if I made this image bigger, it would be grainy)

This is my favorite photo of Jacob.  I love it so much that I've used it as my profile pic in the past.  Jacob has been with us since 2005.  He would have turned 10 this year, and I was excited for that.  Jacob is not my baby, he is my little brother.  I was very drawn to him when I first saw him.  I took care of him when he was given to us.  Jacob made me love dogs more (Jenna made me like dogs) and appreciate their loyalty.

When I got married, I took Jacob with me.  He was my protector, then he became the protector of the house.  My Panget loves him too because he was always alert and barking.  When I had kids, he protected them too!  He was very protective of Kailee and Connor with house guests.  He would sleep outside of their room and play with them.  He has a temper you know, but with Kailee and Connor he was very gentle with them.  I know I've spent less and less time with him since have kids, but nevertheless - I would still speak to him and hug him and spend time with him.  I even told him to watch over the house whenever we're away.

I've written about him here many times, I searched it and saw these posts - here, here, here, here, and here.  Last week, we received a message from our helper - that Jacob was bitten by our other dog a Labrador.  I was worried because we were told that he was looking 50/50.  I immediately called family to ask them to look after Jacob.  He was immediately sent to a 24hour Vet (who in my opinion shouldn't be one because since it was an emergency, he was already asking for a P2,500.00 deposit! Grrr.)  I was told that Jacob was able to survive the next 24 hours, but on the 25th hour, he started to vomit blood.  In a few hours, I got a text message saying that he was gone.

I couldn't believe it.

I was in shock.  I was so sad, disappointed.  I was feeling bad that I wasn't there to hold his paw and tell him to hang on.  I didn't even say goodbye properly.  I was in shock.

He was really gone.

Jacob, I'm sorry that I wasn't able to say goodbye properly, but know that I loved you so very much.  If I only was able to go home, you know I couldn't.  I'm still away.  Thank you for being one of my little brothers.  Thank you for making me smile, listening to me rant and just being with me when I felt so alone.  I will never forget you.

I love you forever Jacob.  Forever.

I told Kailee that Jacob passed away - she was immediate to comfort me.  She was telling me how nice Jacob was to her and how much Connor enjoyed playing with him.

Sad.

Wherever you are Jacob!  Know that you are loved by us.

We love you!