This is not a *Drama* incident. It's just a funny picture I took of her crying.
While we were on vacation she was a drama queen. I think she thought that she would be getting away with it. But I let her cry and scream her lungs out. I would always tell her that being like that will not help her get my sympathies. At times, she would listen and know what to do, but more often - she won't. She's being a child - well, she is a child after all!
This morning, after her Father's Day activity, we went to QC to have a meal. She asked for noodles and so I ordered for her. When it arrived, I prepared a bowl for her and cut the noodles up. She then stared at with with a frown demanding that she wanted to watch TV. So I asked the waiters to turn on the TV to Disney Junior. She then had her eyes glued to the TV and did not eat. I called her attention. She didn't respond. I raised my voice to her and she ate - just 2-3 spoons full. Then her eyes glued to the TV again. I got angry and called her attention in a very loud voice that startled her. But she didn't respond, so I asked the waiter to change the channel. There, she screamed and cried and threw a tantrum.
I looked at her and said that I will not speak to her until she calms down.
And I didn't mind her.
When the time came to leave. I picked up my bag and hers and proceeded to leave the table not minding if she would follow or not. She was crying and followed me.
Honestly - I don't know what to do anymore. I'm exhausted from this already. I don't have the energy to deal with her and her tantrums. I know it's bad - but that's what I felt like. I try and reason with her but what I get are incredulous lines, reasons and blabber. I often kick myself and say why I even allow her to reason out!
I know kids are perceptive. They are smart. But I don't want to instill fear in them so as just to follow me. I like some sort of democracy - but I guess, this is what a democracy is. I'm confused now as a mom. I'm sure there are a lot of confused mothers too.
Can anybody help me? I'm really growing tired.
Kailee is a good child overall. It's just when she throws a tantrum or turns on her drama queen mode that, I want to scream my lungs out at her. But I know screaming will not help. Kelangan na ba ng meditation?
P.S. #OTWOL is keeping me sane. HONESTLY.